They say love is all about physical intimacy, being together, being nice to each other, treating each other as the most important people of each other’s lives. Its about appreciating each other for what you have and respect each other’s difference. But there are things which are different, different from the usual, but still it is love! Sometimes its about hatred, its about frustration, irritation, having feelings beyond the usual ones when one is “in love”.
All stories don’t end up with a happy ending you know, with a guy and a girl coming together and deciding to spend their entire life together and then the usual “happy ending”. Sometimes, things become complicated so complicated that even when one wants to settle everything out, one cannot. Life brings in such situations that even the wisest of the wise couldn’t resolve the complication, and bring the “happy ending” for themselves . But that doesn’t mean there wasn’t any bonding between two hearts, or certainly this doesn’t mean what they experienced wasn’t love. You know some journeys take long to reach their final destinations. They have hurdles, problems and of course it seems like the destination that you want could never be reached. But this doesn’t mean you don’t have anything left in your life and you must just grieve about how things changed and how the worst of all the bad things happened. You need to be optimistic, and you need to be practical with that optimism. Sometimes you do some mistakes which mess up things, which bring complications, bring misunderstating, and sometimes its he who gets confused with things in his life and about what he wants and about how he sees you and in what terms. And sometimes both of you do things which brings complications and lead to a situation where one or the other one starts feeling irritated or frustrated from the other. It may become so worse that a wave of hatred would travel all across your body piercing your heart whenever you hear about or remember “that” person. This may be because it was that person who changed you, made you a person, who, now don’t have trust on anybody, who, when makes a new friends thinks “oh..! gosh.. be careful dear, keep distance, this may be the next person who will tear your heart apart!”. (yup it can become this critical.)
But, one important thing, this hatred isn’t same as you experience usually. This is different, very different, complex and very difficult to resist and overcome. In this case, its about love, its about the frustration which come when you realize that you cannot be together, like you wanted it to be. Its because the person changed, or was always like he is now, but you failed to realize it soon enough. Its a feeling which comes up in your heart that there are uncountable reasons to be apart, but somehow you find a reason from somewhere and try to figure everything out, you starve for the same bond you had, and then suddenly you realize its not happening, this won’t happen again. So this isn’t a normal hatred, this a deep embedded love, which wants to come up.. and shower itself to a person you deeply care about, but you cannot, because situations, broadly speaking life, doesn’t allow you to do so. I know this won’t sound appropriate, but if you experience such a wired feeling, cherish it, celebrate it. Its love, and love in any form is worth celebrating.
And yes, with that feeling in heart, start moving on in your life. Do your work, do fun things, don’t try to run away from this feeling, if you’ll do that, it will follow you, and then hunt you down, and this will hurt even worse. Its better, you learn to live with it and enjoy all the good things you have. Keep that feeling as a learning experience within you that would always help you to make decisions , wise decisions, and such decisions would eventually make you a better person. And you know journeys start to reach a destinations, not necessarily the destinations what you want, but surely to a destination, journeys leading to which would help you to learn, help you to become wiser, help you in becoming the ” new and surely better you”.
After all, life is not about the destination, its all about the what leads you their… the journey. 🙂